Sheer Frustration

So I successfully put off writing a 3 page paper about what careers are best for me to pursue. I am in constant argument with my mom. School sucks for me right now because I just don't care. I'm at a point in my senior year where I just want things to be over. There's too much crap that I have to be paying attention to and it's all stuff that I don't want to waste time bothering with. My future is solidified in the fact that God is sovereign. Nothing I do to "plan out my future career" is ever going to be put into action if it's not in His plan for me. That's why I don't want to write my Psychology paper on what career is best for me in the time of this economy today. Reality is, the economy can't touch me if I'm doing what I'm called to do. I will only get screwed over be the falling economy if I try to implement things in my life that are not supposed to be in it. I take this mindset into everything I do. Which is why I don't stress out about my future. My plans don't matter. It's all on His time. I wish I could write a quality counter-essay on how all this research is nothing but a rich waste of time. The fields I am interested in are Music Education or Pastoral Leadership. I will be called to serve in one of those fields but in both I will be laden with the responsibility to lead youth to a higher calling. Lead them out of living for themselves and into living for something that matters. Living for someone that can lead you through all peril and hardship. Having faith enough to stand up and say, "No, I have no idea what I will be doing next year. I do not know what He has in store for me but I do know that I will prosper and dwell safely." I don't know how to go about writing that essay. I can't just do it. I don't care how much money I make, as long as I'm doing something to further the Kingdom. I don't care about the economy, God will guide me. In today's world, pastors aren't very wanted. Nobody wants to believe that they are not in control. Nobody wants to believe they have to answer to someone better than themselves. Nobody wants to believe that helping others will come back and help you. No, not karma. A wise man in my life said "I do not believe in karma, I believe in a just God." However, good works don't necessarily equal blessing. Blessing comes when God extends it, not because of what you did, but because of your faith in Him. I wish I had the knowledge to stretch these opinions into a 3-page counter-essay, stating that money and economy does not matter. I do not know how I'm going to finish it by eleven tomorrow morning. But it is written "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid." John 14:27